Part of Me
was it a dream?
the ringing in my ears
that i thought
was the phone
broke the silence
of the night
although you weren’t on
the other end of the line
“i love you!”
I cried anyway.
what does it mean?
the pounding in my ears
blocks out the loud music
vibrating through the air
and across the floor
sometimes i want
to rip out my heart
and cast it far away
just to remember
the sound of silence.
but i can’t you see
for you are there
always a part of me
and it hurts far more
to be apart from you
scattered photographs
bring your smile
forever into view
my pounding heart
is all i have of you.
Written in the mid-1990s during my ‘year of confusion’. I was pretty confused about a relationship that wasn’t where I wanted it to be at the time, confused enough that I didn’t know what I wanted any more, just knew I wanted something. Fortunately, he didn’t give up on me and we’ve been happily married for many years.
KJ said this on August 27, 2009 at 4:55 pm